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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
i couldnt resist the seduction,
here i am back again to pen down my thoughts.
on a lighter note,
chinese was okkay.
thank all who wished me well for the paper.
(:
we made it though, WHHOOOAAA.
results wise, we'll talk abt it later.
rushed back after the paper to watch infernal affairs,
which i recorded down on sunday.
GOD, TONY LEUNG IS F CHARMING.
his shabby look, messy hair, black suits.
WTH, i was captivated.
damn, he died in the end.
%&%&*$@*(())_&*$%#@!#!$#%*^)
i was damn sad lah!
bananaboy should know,
apparently,
messages go unreplied.
i dont want to wait anymore.
i hope my darling mingming is alright.
she seems not very good nowadays.sighs
love hurts. got that?
-
i certainly feel that i need to get my ass out of the house.
my mother is forcing me to eat a certain amount for every meal,
she's overfeeding me.
AND AFTER I EAT,
i'll sleep.
soon, soon baby,
you'll see rae looking like a big round ball.
i'm determined to stop thinking abt you.
whatever,
you left me; unanswered.
leaving me to figure out everything by myself.
it seems like you're playing too.
do you know how much you make me feel like crying?
yes, cry over you.
kill yrself rae.
i seriously dont know what has gotten into me.
i realised my smile has been so superficial.
how often does my smile come from within?
somehow,
it seems like i'm sinking into depression.
i need you,
//isolation.
byebye blog.
today HURTS.
fuck, it hurts.
despite all the tears,
i'll stay strong.
chin up, rae.
five books down,
two more to go.
somehow i'm feeling so CHEENA.
man, i want to turn back time.
ironically, i want monday to come real soon.
carrie won,
celebrate? naa.
1) not in the mood to.
2) apparently, bo's the greatest rocker. woohs.(:
baby i need yr hug.
weak and fray,
exhausted by the frustrations surfaced.
i no longer want to hang a smile on my face.
you've been there.
for almost close to two years alr.
thank you for all the times.
however,i dont want to get involved wid you.
stop pestering me okay.
dd,leave me alone.
out of 7 shouce(s),
i'm down to four.
(:
i see the future,
bleak.
i just want a peace of a mind now.
perhaps the grass is greener on the other side.
i'm mentally exhausted.
give me strength;
CHRIS CHAN IS BACK!
(: two new members to the fanclub.
rachel and liuying.
hoho! ccfc's expanding!
ignore the entry below.
i aint in the right mind yesterday.
ALL'S FINE TODAY.
hoobastank's the reason is currently playing in the back ground.
that reminds me,
I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO PLAY DRUMS.
i repeat,
I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO PLAY DRUMS!
looks at you*
i'm suddenly so motivated to study for chinese.
thank you all,
love you.(:
-
i'm back.
i'm depressed, confused, sad.
arrghh.whatever.
mingming's making me so much better!
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
i love mingming
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
can we french?
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
maybe
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
fine some where romantic
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
hmms,
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
romantic.
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
i know
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
nair's office
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
woah
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
tt's a nice place
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
okays
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
need to have appointment with her?
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
dont need la
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
we french
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
not french her!
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
haha
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
but i would like her to witness it
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
so she can kick me out
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
HAHAHA!
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
CAN,
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
LETS FRENCH IN FRONT OF HER
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
or susan also can!
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
HAHA
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
yeahhh
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise says:
i think they wish us all the best ?
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
hmms,
rae- the trouble wid love is, says:
provided our frenching skills rock la
HAHAHA.
conversation wif MAE yesterday,
me:can you turn straight?
her:you're in no position to tell me that.
fine la.
i want to be yr baby doll,
bonding during bigwalk was great!
(:
my legs were aching terribly.
due to SOME pple,
who doesnt want to tell me stuff,
and got me all distracted,
i was unable to study my chinese.
but eyes were on passerbys walking through the citylink.
and attempting to make her spill out the beans.
when can you ever be mine?
*BASH* its wrong.
and i'm not someone who eyes on other's property.
WHAT EXACTLY AM I THNKING?!
just some random thoughts lah.
rae is happy.
thank you for yesterday honey.
(:
the waters by the esplanade certainly brings back mulitple memories.
i want to hug you forever,
doesnt that sound familar?
sexuality talk from pastor andrew from andrew and grace home was pleasantly interesting.
its time to isolate myself from the lesbian world,
and set my thinking straight.
though i know,
no man is perfect. sighs
blessed are the pure.
mugging for chinese Os today.
yes, i can do it.
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like a falling star i fell for you.
why are you so similar like her?
bleah, i'm bored.
mugging of chinese wasnt that productive.
good luck to me.
quit playing games wif my heart.
WHAT THE HELL IS MY MIND COMING TOO?!
digressing,
i miss you.
I THINK I'M PMSING.
I HATE IRREGULARS.
byebye.
extreme exam stress.
oh man,
i just received some bad news.
i hope my ganma's alright.
my last resort to recalling my period dates,
reading my archives to get some clues here and there.
how pathetic can i get?
as the day fades,
i sense my mood turning for the worst.
somehow i'm pissed by everything ard,
my life, HER, HER and HER(dirty hands),
x-cty yesterday, the coming Os,
damn, just so many things.
i think rae is just grouchy lah.
do you know how upset i am, wid myself?
$^$^#$@R*^(&%$^%*$&^#$^*_(_+(+)**^^$!!!!!
the world seems to be crashing down upon me.
10 days,
the damn Olevel chinese paper is coming in 10days.
my chinese has always been atrocious okay.
HOW DO YOU EXPECT MY CHINESE TO BE GOOD
WHEN I DONT EVEN LOOK CHINESE?!
my A1 seems to far-sighted.
i'm feeling really screwed,
sorry.
wanna be is making me worse,
i'm breaking down.
what humiliating defeat,
school's x-cty was tiring?
i'm pretty glad its over.
dont talk abt it,
me and my bitch were pretty upset over SOME stuff.
towned wif manel baby today.
we met 102 cedarians in town.
town is just so filled wid cedarians.
towning is boring.
was sleeping and my fone vibrated several times,
damn irritating!
the worst is,
i got a call from my mom,who's at home.
mom:still not coming back yet?
me:i'm upstairs sleeping la.
i promise i'll study chinese tonight.
=)
i think his chain is damn cool.
I WANT SOMETHING LIKE THAT TOO!
this entry is crap.
not in a good mood actually.
still pretty affected.
damn.
a silhouette of someone so familar,
yet so distant.
a soul so unsure of herself,
and the cold reality of the world.
sure, she's going to pursue the dream girl of her mind.
someday, soon.
hate me if you want.
the world's just so superficial.
today just suck la.
i think MAE's in love.
i'm serious.
not wid me la,
wid -.
tsk tsk.
she should know it better.
nonono,
dont get it wrong.
i'm not jealous.
apparently i'm in love too,
wid you-know-who.
HOHO.
one great reason why today suck.
I GOT BACK MY HISTORY PAPER,
AND DAMN,
ITS THE WORST HISTORY RESULT I GOT OKAY.
i still cant get over it.
my bad temper has gotten its toll over me,
and my tiredness's making it worst.
i think i'm becoming nocturnal.
NOTICE:
if you're fat,
dont turn bung.
(yes yes,
and MAE will tell me never to turn bung,
because i'm fat.)
fat bungs,
CANT MAKE IT lah.
i met tanying today!
whee. (:
a new member to the family,
meet xiao hei.
(rrraahhh.that's my darling bear's name.)
i wanted to name her charcoal,
charcoal and coco(my 1st dog) sounds alike,
but my mother insisted on xiao hei.
fine, she copy my bear's name.
AND SHE TOLD ME TO CHANGE MY BEAR'S NAME TO CHARCOAL.
-.-
a visit to the petshop,
i had a chance to carry a baby golden!
she was damn pretty okkay.
she's like only 7weeks old!
but not that small lah,
cos she's a golden.
but i wanted her straight away.
BUT SHE'S NOT FOR SALE.=(
apparently, she'll lose her pretty face when she grows up.
but still, i love her! (:
please navigate to images,
this is part of a movement to fight some pervertic guy,
who take cedarians photos from the net and post them on sggirls.
SICK.
i need MAE to come back,
frowns*
MAE stands for HUA QIAN YI.
haha, she's MAE lah.
i reckon i should start speaking chinese,
and start studying.
(before MAE comes back and screams at me for slacking so much.)
you see, i'm supposed to do alittle chinese everyday while she's gone.
on a lighter note,
i did touch my shouce.
i did okay,
at the sight of it, and the outcome of reading on the bed,
i ended up sleeping.
ALL THE CHINESE WORDS DIFFUSE INTO MY BRAIN,
good way of studying huh!
my bed's so cozy,
raaaahhhh.
cheryl's in love wif my bedsheet!
have you come across wif PB?
-pure bung
yes i have,
pure les isnt that bad,
PB is like gay?!
O.O
digressing, i wonder why my sister's so different from me.
should i come home and sleep tomorrow,
or go out to spice up my life alittle.
I SUPER HAVE NO LIFE LA.
oh brownies!
i've ate quite abit.
heh.=)
my two dogs are sleeping in the room,
wif air-conditioning.
they super know how to enjoy life.
ending off,
aint she sweet?
my dream of becoming an air-stewardess seems too far-sighted.
perhaps its just a beautiful dream.
and shall always remain as a dream.
YOU SEE, I'M ONLY 150.
and i dont think i'll ever grow.
sobbs*
its like i get the same answer whenever i tell them i want to be an air-stewardess:
HAHAHA!i dont think you can make it.
HMPPPFFF.fine,
i miss you,
MAE'S at camp.
boo, =(
somehow i miss her la.
i'm living in my virtual world of books again.
apparently,
i started petals on the wind.
AND I CANT PUT IT DOWN EVER SINCE.
and all i've done for this whole day is,
sleep and read.
HA.bless me.
english marks was horrible.
i dont wanna mention abt it.
compo was damn,
how can i ever get such degrading marks,
DAMN.
not to mention my chinese marks were
-.-, fullstop.
i ought to study real hard for my coming Os.
RAAAAHHHHH.
gonna bake brownies later!
tell me if you want some,
love you-
-
laughing yet crying at the same time.
HE'S DAMN CUTE LA.
lalala, david.
thats my 36 year old guy.
HANDS OFF MY DAVID TAO.
gave training a miss yesterday,
I SELF-DECLARE NO MORE TRAINING FOR ME.
heard some pretty disgusting stuff abt him and her again.
(not surprising: the whole damn school knows)
let me repeat,
MR/MS POON SUCKS okaay.
did you think of me like how i thought of you?
what is cedar coming to?!
there are like so many couples suddenly?
not that i condemn lesbianism,
but the active(s) is/are cant make it.
i look inside the mirror,
i see a fat and ugly girl looking back at me.
damn,
been really moody today.
my mind's pretty screwed up.
i dont know, i dont want to think abt it.
i dont wanna think abt you.
i want to slap myself,
and tell myself to wake up.
tomorrow will be the checking of language papers.
wish me luck.
today sucks totally.
i think I HAVE NO LIFE.
!@#$%^&^%$@!@$%&^**%#@@$%&!!!!
mids are finally over,
however, it ended off wif a nightmare.
pure history paper was HORRIBLE.
out of the four structured essays that i'm supposed to write,
i didnt know how to do 3 of them.
all thanks to my laziness,
and my lousy spotting skills.
i'm starting my dieting again,
i'll probably visit the gym and spend a straight hour or so on the treadmill.
=) lalala.
my temper has gotten its toll over me nowadays.
i wonder why my moodswings are so extreme.
beat got a few seconds of fame yesterday!
HAHA.I HOPE YOU DID CATCH THAT SHOW.
most bungs there,
cant make it.
today's a short entry,
tag more please.haha.=)
what is love?
love is a lie.
to deceive for the naive race of mankind.
love doesnt exist between humans.
it only exists between an individual and God.
yes, the Lord God Almighty.
i detest this feeling.
under the facade of sweet talk,
hugs and kisses,
love is a lie.
i shall isolate from this lie,
now and forever.
RACHEL CHIN,
I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WID YOU.
CAN YOU PLEASE WAKE UP?!
damn, i dont know whats wrong wif me too.
i'm so lost.
i shant bear any grudges against that julia person.
apparently, her friend copied my template,
and tell her that its his creation.
mugging wif manel baby was so great today.
we were so productive,
gossip and mug at the same time,
WOOHS.
i really feel like cry alr,
i dont know whats wrong wif me,
what am i thinking,
i dont want to put on this mask anymore.
immune system low.
i'm sick,
grrrrrr.
DUE to SOME COPYCATS,
did some amendments to my template.
brings out the sophiscation in my template.
lala.
quoted from MAE,
'but i realised its love at first sight'
if that person's gonna copy again,
i'll break her legs.
emaths paper was yet another killer,
but 2 papers left!
and it leaves me rejoicing,
for the nearing of my chinese Os.
i miss YOU.
i absolutely have no confidence in my history paper this time.
lizah's marking scheme
is like so different to gabtan!
mrtan where are you?
i miss you,
boos.
can someone lend me petals of the wind
ASAP?!?!?!
i still dont want cory to die!
please comment on my new blog look!
=)
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damn,
yr voice really makes me melt.
shutup!
for i'm like damn pissed?!
http://www.wakeuptomusic.blogspot.com
I BET THE PERSON COPY MY TEMPLATE LA.
my template is original,
carefully planned and created by my genius mind.
and i bet the person linked from my sister's to mine,
and COPY.
hell,
prime papers are over!
geo elective was a total killer.
ss was equally bad.
amaths was easy until i can puke blood.
and get a big egg from the marker.
emaths tomorrow,
vectors (rahhhhh) and histograms are certainly not my cup of tea.
not to mention, loci and contructions.
which apparently, is the easist topic?!
and i dont know how to score.
great.
unfair.
my sister doesnt have school tomorrow.
cos pL did well for syf?
haha.-.-
i like damn sad!
somepple like attached,
leaving me wif no chance.
HAHA.KIDDING LA.
lalala.
on a lighter note,
priscilla's sister is BLIND.
nodds* i bet pris agrees too.
i cant wait for mids to end,
i see a light at the end of the tunnel now.
what stupid analogy.
the light comes from an imcoming train,
--> chinese Os.
see, i'm crapping.
this entry's crap.
he was in town?!
ROARS-
i'm in love wid a 36yr old man.
//privacy invasion
ps.i dont want cory to die la.
want to cry alr!
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i love surprises.
i cant stop thinking abt you.
did i mention how much your voice makes my heart go soft?
and makes me feel loved from head to toe?
was outside for the whole day wif MAE yesterday.
MAE stands for. . .
(dont tell you.HA!)
saw viv, heard her complains abt training under THE man.
how many times have i mentioned that THE man sucks!
her popularity in school is inevitably decreasing.
guess what?
i'm abt to finish tourism.
GRINS WIDELY*
apparently, he came to ask me for help.
on her?
i see its a hopeless case.
teenagers nowadays,
SIGH!
its not too good to go into a relationship at such a young age you know.
a crooked r/s is definitely much tougher.
ending off,
SINGLEHOOD STILL THE BEST LA.
status:flirt.
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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